I Am

I introduced myself using the question “Who am I,” which I ended with the answer “I Am.”

I probably should expect after reading; this could cause a few frowns. And as predicted, after sharing this introduction with a friend of mine who has become very close to my heart within a short period, a friend who is always straightforward, but also very bold and true. He said which to me (in my paraphrasing) sounded a little like this:

 “ Roshni it’s great you started your page which by the way looks good, however, and I sincerely apologize for saying this, but the answer to your question "Who Am I“ doesn’t tell me sh**t.                                                                           

Well, you can guess that this startled me a little...

Ok, a lot. 

So here I am as a service to him, probably amongst others to explain what I meant with my introduction. Here goes:

"I am is the essence of my personality without all identifications."

Which probably still says nothing...

Let me explain: 

Usually, after we say I am, we say "What we are" or "What we have accomplished" or “What we experienced in the past.”

In my case I could say I AM a Certified Public Accountant, I AM someone coming from a well-established family, I AM a former Chess Champion (yes it’s true), I AM someone's ex-wife... guess I should stop now.

However when stating all the above, I am identifying with past experiences, with accomplishments, with education, with my car, my house, the watch I wear and how many Chanel bags I have in my closet.

Which made me think of a famous quote by Jim Carrey: 

“I think everybody should get rich and famous and buy everything they ever dreamed of so they can see that it's not the answer.”

A statement very profound, yet merely meaning that all external details do not even come close to the person we are and the person who I truly am.

Knowing who you are means, knowing yourself at a level beyond a level of thoughts and perceptions about yourself.

Ultimately knowing yourself is being yourself entirely. Being in touch with the being that you are.

When we say I am and add nothing to it, this can get you in touch with the essence of your being.

          Therefore I started this page with the question " who am I," not looking for an answer. But instead let the answer come to me.      

And when I truly listen..., I feel a sense of Love, connectedness and a sense of peace.

I guess at this moment that is all I am and all you need to know about me.

I am nothing more and nothing less... 



Author: Roshni Jagroep

References: "The power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle