What would you have me do?
As if it was yesterday I remember hearing my father’s voice loud and clear, facing me with a posture resolute and strong “my daughter will be a Certified Accountant.”
From this moment on my path was determined. My life goal was set. I was going to become an accountant, and I am going to make my father proud. And believe it or not, this is precisely what I am right at this very moment.
People doubt that our thoughts create reality. Well, it doesn’t if you’re just sitting around thinking "I want something". But there is no question that if the energy and the vibration are in sync with what is to come your way, that there is a space you create which allows this to happen.
However, this is not the thing I opened up my laptop for at 2 o’clock in the morning.
The thing I came to write down is that this is not even what I want to be, this is not where my heart lies, and this is not what makes me happy.
This so-called title that I picked up by years and years of studying, determination and pursuing something which at that time I wanted so badly, is something that does not bring me any sincere, heartfelt joy whatsoever. But at that time I did not know.
At the time this was what I believed I should become, this was what I thought would make me happy, fulfilled, and accomplished.
I had not the slightest clue that God, the Universe, Life whatever you want to call it had something else in mind for me. And the funny thing is, I just recently got caught up in conversation with a good friend of mine, in her very own pursuit of this very same title.
She is fighting, struggling, studying and working so hard to achieve what I also achieved a few years ago. And in her eyes I recognize myself, I feel her hunger, and in that hunger, I can sense her doubt whether she should continue to struggle or not.
And the reason I see this struggle is because this is something she is doing and wants to do for millions of reasons which she believes will make her happy. But this holding on, this clinging on to something which she wants so badly, is also the one thing that is keeping her from it.
The thing I know for sure is when we are constantly fighting to try to make things happen, we are creating resistance.
We generate resistance because the fear of failure, brings with it doubt, fear, anxiety, stress and all other feelings and thoughts which carries us far from the vibration, the energy we need to be on.
We need to remember that this life can have a bigger dream for us than we can ever dream of ourselves.
When you have worked as hard and done as much and Strived and Tried and Given and Pled and Bargained and Hoped…
When you have done all that you can do, and there is Nothing left for you to do
Give it up
Give up what you think should be happening, for what is actually happening.
You can dream this much, But Life has a bigger dream.
When you’re asking yourself over and over "What should I do, Should I do this, should I do that, What should I do?"
The bigger question is.
“Dear life, what would You have me do?”
Author: Roshni Jagroep